A new......

Bromance. I really hate that word. It is a stupid stupid made up word. But i don't know what to call it. There are certain dudes that i have an affection for, not in a gay way, but just an admiration for their ability to be awesome at something they are really good at and I am pretty sure if we knew each other in real life we would probably be best friends. If you have ever had this conversation with me you know that I think that this list includes: Andy Roddick, Brandon Flowers, Joseph Gordon-Leavitt, Chris Pratt, and the this new addition: Donald Glover aka the Childish Gambino aka Troy from the show Community. Actor, writer, comedian, and rapper. Its like we were twins separated at birth.....except that I am not any of those things. And he is black, and as much as I tell people that I am probably at least half black, no one believes me. So maybe not separated at birth twins, maybe just best friends who won't meet until heaven where we discovered we were totally best buddies before in heaven. Tangent over.

If you don't know who he is you should watch this show

Community




Where he plays Troy




or listen to his amazing rapping skills. I would describe his skills as Kanye and Kid Cudi having a lovechild that is somehow raised by Lupe Fiasco or with a close family friend being Immortal Technique. His rapper name is Childish Gambino.



or you can listen to his rap. Warning this is explicit, i was too lazy to find an edited version, so if that is not your cup of tea just trust me he is awesome.



or this awesome remix to Rolling in the Deep



And now a friend showed me that he has a blog of his own that I spent the last 2.5 hours reading, and if I ever was to develop a tumbr account it would look exactly the same. I dig everything on it. His random videos, his art, the music, the journal entries, the love of minimalist architecture, the ladies, and the dudes fashion. If I could somehow lose 15 pounds and be able to pull off the clothes he puts on there i totally would. Luckily we both got a love of flannel and cardigans and the guy has a love for canvas shoes and nice dress shoes and cool looking tennis shoes that may even exceed my own. Seriously, all i want for Christmas is a sweet pea coat, a new pair of brown dress shoes, and another bright colored cardigan to add to the collection. Anyways, check it out for yourself and just know that I would have created something just as cool that would look very similar if I could allocate the time to do it and muster up any motivation.

http://www.iamdonald.com/

Weird Celebrity Crush

Yeah, its probably time for another round of awkward celebrity crushes that I have. B-radley's blog is a judgement free zone, so don't judge me. You may remember posts of the past with such celebs as: Charlyne Yi, Leslie Mann, Chelsea Handler, and of course my very real crush on Lindsay Lohan. I want to make free Lindsay t-shirts but probably won't.

Parker Posey:
You may know her from numerous Christopher Guest films like: Best in Show, A Mighty Wind, For Your Consideration etc. You may know her from these ridiculous movies like Party Girl, Josie and the Pussy Cats, and Scream 3 (She played the film version of Courtney Cox's character Gail Weathers). Or you may have just seen her last year on one of my favorite episodes of Parks and Recreation. She is a riot, and kinda cute, am I right?




Sandra Oh:
You probably best know her from Grey's Anatomy where she plays the best character on that show, Cristina Yang. She has also been in a few movies where she was really great like Blind or a recent favorite of mine, Rabbit Hole. But it is her role as Yang that won me over




Aubrey Plaza:
You probably know her from the hit show Parks and Recreation where she plays April Ludgate, the college intern turned assistant who is one of the best parts of the show. You should also check out her interviews on any late night show, she is so awkward it blows me away. She had me at awkward moment number 1. She was also in Funny People and Scott Pilgrim vs. the World.





or she has had a couple guest spots on Fred Armisan's Portlandia, in this awesome skit:




Last but not least: Casey Wilson
You may know her from the show Happy Endings. If you are not watching this show you are missing out. Its on Wednesday nights right after Modern Family. You now no longer have an excuse because I know you are watching Modern Family. She also was on SNL for a year and had a small role in Julie and Julia and Killers. Her character Penny Heart is becoming one of my favorite characters on tv. I started watching this show to support Elisha Cuthbert because she is Jack Bauer's daughter, but Casey steals the show. I started watching on day 1 and haven't missed an episode since. She also has amazing shorts on Funny or Die .com. Which i will post for your viewing pleasure.

Black Best Friend with Casey Wilson from Casey Wilson

Charla Loves to Dance with Casey WIlson from Casey Wilson

You're Welcome.

Well there you go, that is it for this round of weird celebrity crushes.

So it turns out that......

I am a 5 Star chef. Please scroll down like 6 posts to see the cookies I made not too long ago. But for a more recent example please see the pictures below.

Turkey Stuffed Peppers with White Sauce




Spaghetti Squash Spaghetti with sauteed mushrooms, zucchini, onions, and spinach.




I promise they taste so much better than they look.

Its the Jersey Shore..........

Biotch.




In honor of the season finale of the 4th season of the Jersey Shore and at the request of a friend, I am going to post my favorite Snooki quotes of all time. Here they are in their splender.....edited slightly for your benefit and with some explanation when needed. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do.

- When I woke up I was like what did I do last night? Like what did I do? I f#$%ed up… story of my life.
- Pickles is my thing.



- He’s a really good guy. That’s the kind of guy I need in my life. I think his name is Ron. [it was Russ]
- She gives great advice. [in response to JWOWW saying, "Get some food. Feel better. Drink heavily."]
- Please don’t tell me I have missing teeth!
- I came home when they were putting in the lobsters, i was like yo, are those real? That’s disgusting, I’m a vet tech. Like, I save animals, I don’t kill them.
- I tried to eat but I couldn’t get it in my freakin’ mouth ’cause I’m disabled.
- I’m not trashy, unless I drink too much.
- I’m not pissed off that they put pickles under my bed as a joke, but I’m pissed off that Mike and Pauly wasted two pickles.
- That’sNotCoolThat’sNotCoolThat’sNotCoolThat’sNotCoolThat’sNotCoolThat’sNotCool.
- Snook gets political: I don’t go tanning tanning anymore because Obama put a 10% tax on tanning. I feel like he did that intentionally for us, like McCain would never put a 10% tax on tanning.. because he is pale and he would probably wanna be tanned.
- Eating fried pickles was a life changing experience.
- My first thought was: I don’t wanna clean this up. My second thought was: I just f*$%ed up dinner. My third thought was: What the f*&k am I gonna eat?
- Me & Jenni are terrified to go come back to the house, we just don’t want to deal with the drama… that WE caused.
- Snooki: I’m not white. JWOWW: What are you? Snooki: Tan.
- What I would love to find is a guido, juicehead with my style who’s not a cheater ’cause I’m not gonna go on Match.com again.
- I can’t read a map because I can’t see. Ron can’t read a map because you know, Ron’s Ron
- Jionni is very conservative sexually. Me I’m the total opposite I don’t give a f*&k what people think about me. I peed my pants in public, I’m still not be embarrassed.



- I look like a pale freak. I feel like Vinny.
- I couldn't even tell you how I felt in that jail cell. It was like a f*%king phenomenon ... I'm not a phenomenon. I'm a train wreck.
- I'm a f**king good person!
- Where's the beach?
- If I want a beer, then I can have a beer. This isn't law school, it's a t-shirt shop.
- Guys are douchebags and I hate them all. They don't know how to treat women, and I feel like this is why the lesbian rate is going up in this country.
- The geography in Italy is beautiful. Vinnie: what do you mean by geography? Snooks: like the landscaping, they have trees and stuff.
- Jesus take the wheel.

I have never cried because of a television show.....

or hardly at all because i am a big tuff man, but if I ever was going to cry because of something I saw on television it would be this:



Oh Michael Scott, you are the greatest thing to happen to tv and will be missed. Related side note, the first episode of the new season of The Office was pretty funny. I am interested to see how the show progresses. Andy as his replacement, was the best choice.

Emmy Predictions

Outstanding Drama Series

Boardwalk Empire

Dexter

Friday Night Lights

Game of Thrones

The Good Wife

Mad Men *

Friday Night Lights was consistantly an awesome show, that ended in one of its best seasons. It deserves it. However, Mad Men will probably get it, because it is the most complex drama on television, an entire show based on character development.

Outstanding Comedy Series

Big Bang Theory

Glee

Modern Family *

The Office

Parks and Recreation

30 Rock

I really thing Parks deserves it this year. It was an amazing season. As someone who watches all of these shows every week, Parks n Rec is the funniest show on television. That said, Modern Family will prob win it.


Outstanding Actress in a Drama

Kathy Bates, Harry's Law

Connie Britton, Friday Night Lights

Mireille Enos, The Killing

Mariska Hargitay, Law and Order: SVU

Julianna Margulies, The Good Wife *

Elisabeth Moss, Mad Men

I want Connie Britton to win so bad. But she probably won't. I really think Mireille Enos carried the awesome show The Killing. And Elisabeth Moss is my favorite character on Mad Men, and definitely deserves a win. But the awards show really loves Julianna Marguiles. I don't really watch the show so I can't comment.



Outstanding Supporting Actress In A Drama

Kelly Macdonald, Boardwalk Empire

Archie Panjabi, The Good Wife

Christine Baranski, The Good Wife

Margo Martindale, Justified

Michelle Forbes, The Killing

Christina Hendricks, Mad Men *

I think she deserves a win for playing the formidable Joan. And I think she will take it.



Outstanding Actor in a Drama

Steve Buscemi, Boardwalk Empire

Kyle Chandler, Friday Night Lights

Michael C. Hall, Dexter

John Hamm, Mad Men *

Hugh Laurie, House

Timothy Olyphant, Justified


Again, this is his last change to win and he derserves it. But John Hamm will prob win.

Outstanding Supporting Actor in a Drama

Peter Dinklage, Game of Thrones

Josh Charles, The Good Wife

Alan Cumming, The Good Wife

Walton Goggins, Justified

John Slattery, Mad Men *

I think it is a Mad Men season this year. He Should win.

Andrew Braugher, Men of a Certain Age




Outstanding Actress in a Comedy

Edie Falco, Nurse Jackie

Tina Fey, 30 Rock

Laura Linney, The Big C *

Melissa McCarthy, Mike & Molly

Martha Plimpton, Raising Hope

Amy Poehler, Parks and Recreation

Amy should win. It is hard for me to take anything away from my girl Tina. But Amy was awesome in Parks. But Laura Linney won last year and my guess is she will win again.



Outstanding Supporting Actress In A Comedy

Jane Lynch, Glee *

Betty White, Hot In Cleveland

Julie Bowen, Modern Family

Sofia Vergara, Modern Family

Kristen Wiig, Saturday Night Live

Jane Krakowski, 30 Rock

Jane Krakowski deserves to win. She has been amazing every year on 30 Rock. Kristin Wiig also deserves it for carrying SNL. But Jane Lynch will prob win.



Outstanding Actor in a Comedy

Alec Baldwin, 30 Rock

Louis C.K., Louie

Steve Carrell, The Office *

Johnny Galecki, The Big Bang Theory

Matt LeBlanc, Episodes

Jim Parsons, The Big Bang Theory

He has never won and this is his year.


Outstanding Supporting Actor In A Comedy

Chris Colfer, Glee

Jesse Tyler Ferguson, Modern Family

Ed O'Neill, Modern Family

Eric Stonestreet, Modern Family

Ty Burrell, Modern Family*

Jon Cryer, Two and a Half Men

The best character on Modern Family. Phil Dunphee for the win.



Outstanding Variety, Comedy Or Musical Series

The Colbert Report

Conan

The Daily Show With Jon Stewart *

Late Night With Jimmy Fallon

Real Time With Bill Maher

Saturday Night Live

I really think Jimmy has the most quality program improvement and should be rewarded. However, Jon Stewart wins every year and with good reason.


Outstanding Reality Show

The Amazing Race *

American Idol

Dancing With the Stars

Project Runway

So You Think You Can Dance

Top Chef

SYTCD is the best reality show on tv. I am surprised the Voice wasn't nominated. But Amazing Race always seems to win.


So these are my picks. I am tuning in now to watch. Just thought I would give my 2 cents.

Gross

That would be the one word to describe the last 6 days of my life. I had not one but 2 grandparents go in for surgery this week. Which sucks. It sucks even worse when you are 700 miles away and can't do ANYTHING. The only thing I could do is wait impatiently for text updates from my mom. If you know me then you know that I do not like to wait and if I have to do so, I cannot do it patiently. I don't know if it was that or a myriad of other things that led me to horrible bout of homesickness that basically lasted all weekend. There was nothing that I could do to get rid of it.......or probably better put, there was nothing that I really tried to do to get rid of it. I also somehow managed to hurt my knee while running this week too. Most people would take a few days off and let their knee rest............I am not really most people. I managed to convince myself that I could just run it off. I would be good for 1-2 miles, and then I would hobble another mile before I gave up. Then I would go lift weights and try to hit the treadmill again but would get a mile into it before I had to call it quits. Repeat everyday since Tuesday. FML. So I have basically avoided everyone and anyone all week while I wallowed in self pity and homesickness. I decided to change that with going to church for all 3 hours today. I think it helped a little. And then I just got back from a late night jog along the canal, which was cool. It felt good and the knee didn't really act up too bad, so maybe its getting better. Got a call from my mom saying my Grandma's surgery went well, she has to spend the night and if everything goes well she can come home tomorrow, to my Grandpa who is recovering from radiation and prostate surgery. Both seem to be on the mend and I am praying that they continue to get better. I have also decided to really focus on school and working out with the hopes that both of those things will get me out of this funk.

Well if you have ever wanted a soundtrack to miserableness here has been mine:







There are more, but I just found out that Sister Act 2 is on tv right now........and that is what I will be doing for the next hour and a half. Sorry for the prolonged wait in blogging. I will try to be better.

So I am moving

It is that time again. I am moving back to AZ. Really crazy. A big part of me wishes I could stay longer - another part is ready for a new adventure. I decided to move into my own apartment this go around, so that will be interesting. And I had to rent it site unseen, so this is going to be a big adventure. I looked at a few places before I moved back, and had a place that I wanted and had in mind, and like all things in my life, I waited too long and they didn't have any available. So I turned to what all people do when they are desperate: Craigslist. I found a cool place in scottsdale about 5 miles north of school. I am semi-familiar with the area, but have never driven past this complex. The inside has been renovated recently and looks cool.....at least from the pictures the realtor posted on CL. This will be my before post: meaning i will post the pictures that the realtor posted and then post pictures of what it actually looks like when i get there. She promised me that there will be no difference, and that the place doesn't smell like pee or smoke, and that it has been nicely taken care of and is super clean. This adventure is going to be CRAZY

I'm Sorry

That Betty Crocker ain't got nothing on me.

I was craving cookies from Ruby Snap (formerly known as My Dough Girl) late last night. But it is closed and in Salt Lake, so today I decided to try and find some recipes similar to my favorite types of cookies sold there and make them. And it turned out pretty awesome. The two types I made are similar to the Ricki (Cocanut dough with almonds coconuts and chocolate chips) and the Maris (Chocolate chocolate chip dough with a carmel center.) So found a recipe for a chocolate chocolate chip cookie with a carmel center and made it but added some pecans to the top of it. Turned out really good. The Ricki was a lot harder to find a recipe for, so I kind of invented one on my own by switching up the ingredients a bit on a standard nestle tollhouse recipe. I decided to make almond dough instead of coconut, which turned out sooooooooooooo good. I have never really made cookies before, so I was pretty impressed with the turnout. Here are the pics:

The Voice

Can now be added to the long list of reality television shows that I watch................fml. But it is really good. Like three or four singers are super exceptional. Here are my faves:

Dia Frampton:

Losing My Religion



Heartless




Javier Colon:

Fix You



Angel





Vicki Martinez

Dog Days Are Over


Jolene

The Head and The Heart

I went to the Iron & Wine concert this weekend with one of my best friends, and was pleasantly surprised by the opener for the show. They completely beat out Iron & Wine, and I found a new group that I can't get enough of. Here are some of my faves, listen and enjoy:

Cats and Dogs and Coeur D'Alene




Lost In My Mind




Down In The Valley




Rivers and Roads:




As a side note, I am not, nor have I ever, no will I ever be a hipster, I can recognize good music, even if it comes from a hipster setting.

Why Hello There

Remember when I used to update my blog fairly regularly? Oops. Since my last post I finished finals, my first year of law school, packed up all my stuff in Arizona into a storage unit, packed up all my other stuff into my car and drove back home to Utah. This post will be a breakdown of all of those events and what I have been up to since I have been back home.

Finals
I had 4 finals each were 4 hours long and a 15 page memorandum to write. The memo was due first. We had to research court cases and argue whether or not warrantless GPS surveillance of a suspects vehicle is constitutional or not. It actually got pretty interesting to study. I did fairly decent on it, made a couple of stupid mistakes, but overall was pretty happy with the way it turned out.

The first final was in criminal law. This was my favorite class of the semester, probably a combination of an interesting professor and awesome cases to read. I thought the test went well, but grades haven't been released yet so who knows. The next final was Administrative Law. I thought the final wasn't too bad. We had a midterm in that class and I did pretty well on it so I am hoping that the final goes the same way. Next final was Property Law. This final was miserable. Luckily everyone thought so. Basically we read almost 1200 pages worth of material and were tested on random things in those 1200 pages. Most other law schools divide the class into 2 semesters and make it a more manageable 600 pages worth of material. But ASU doesn't not do that and it makes for one biatch of a final. The last final was constitutional law. I think that this one went alright. It was the second hardest final, and I think that I did decent enough on it. Who knows though. In law school everything is graded on a curve. And not a curve that used to make your 82% into an A like in high school and undergrad. Instead the curve makes it so the top 10% are allowed to get an A on the test. So in theory and in my case a reality a 94% on a final paper can give you a B-. I really hate the curve.

1st year is donzo
I really can't believe that the first year of law school is finally over. It really is as hard as everyone makes it out to be. It is not fun, don't let anyone tell you it is, they are lying to try to trick you into going to law school. It requires a lot of hard work and a lot of dedicated effort. But I feel like I have learned a lot. And I know that it will all be worth it one day. And I am told that it does get better. I hope that is the case. Overall I have really liked my experience. Moving away from home to a new place has bee a really valuable experience, one I am glad I chose to do. I learned a lot about myself, made some really great changes in my life, and know that I am better because of it. Where I will be next semester?.......know knows.

Arizona State University
I took some pics my last day in AZ of the school, library, and the institute building that occupied so much of my time so you all could see where I was at. Here are those pics:

Sandra Day O'Connor College of Law





Law Library






Institute











On Top of Institute parking looking at institute and law school and library


The Drive back home
Or as I like to call it my roadtrip with Tina Fey. I really do not mind the drive to and from Arizona. I took the scenic route from Phoenix to Flagstaff to Page, around Lake Powell, to Kanab through Cedar City canyon and then on to I-15 and back home to Farr West. My roadtrip with Tina Fey started in Flagstaff. I got her new book, Bossy Pants, in audio form and listened to it completely. When I didn't think I could love her any more, she goes and narrates this book and proves that I could, in fact, love her more. It is hilarious, offers some really interesting insight in to her life, what it was like to be a woman breaking into comedy, being the first female head writer on SNL, and then some insight on writing and producing 30 Rock. So entertaining. Made 6 hours of my trip really engaging. Also the drive is beautiful. Outside of Phoenix you get the real desert experience of nothing but rolling hills with cacti and sagebrush. Then you start to climb mountain on the way to Flagstaff. Flagstaff is super pretty too, you climb to about 7000 feet when you get there and you are surrounded by pine tree covered mountain peaks. It kind of reminds me a lot of Park City only a little bigger. Once you descend out of Flagstaff you go through wild flower covered meadows until you hit desert again and you circle around the south rim of the Grand Canyon. Then you have occasionally glimpses of the Colorado River and really pretty red rock plateaus until you hit Page, AZ. Then you go over Glenn Canyon damn and circle around Lake Powell. Then you go on to Kanab and see the Grand Staircase Then you can go and go to Panguitch or you can cut through Cedar City Canyon and take one of the prettiest drives in the whole state. If you haven't ever taken that pass you are missing out. It was all still covered in snow but super pretty. I saw an Elk and a ton of deer while driving through it. Which kept me awake. If you have never been on a roadtrip with me I have only one fear, and that is hitting a deer or some other large animal while driving. You come out of the canyon into Cedar City. Then you get on I-15 and head home, which normally isn't a pretty drive until you get to Nephi, but with all the rain, instead of everything being brown and dead it was all really green. Anyways, I left at 9am Arizona time, and pulled into my parent's driveway around 11:30pm. Traffic in Utah County was miserable.

Life As I Know It
Well I have been home for two weeks now. I have caught up on a lot of sleep. I am doing an internship for a attorney/friend of mine, got a job doing legal research for a health law attorney in Salt Lake, and am going to be getting another job at Lowes or The Buckle, depending on who will pay me more or maybe both, to earn some cash money for the summer. I have spent a lot of time with friends in both Salt Lake and O-Town, if I haven't seen you yet, call me. I have also spent some quality time with my nephew and niece, boy I have I missed those two. Also, My 4 year-old neighbor/best friend has been over almost every day to see if I could play or jump on the tramp. This kid kills me. I think me really getting started with my internship and my new job and working at either the Buck or Lowes is going to be hard for him.

Anyways life is good. Glad to be where I am right now. Let's make this summer fun, deal?

Parks and Recreation's Best in Show

The award for my favorite guest actor on my favorite show Parks and Recreation is...........



Parker Posey for last week's guest appearance as Leslie's counterpart for the rich neighboring town of Eagleton. I really wish she was going to be a permanent fixture on the show but am super glad she is going to be in the next one.

Here is a clip, not the funniest one of her, but a very funny clip.

Warped Tour 2001 Flash Back

Oh punk angst, somehow you still go down smooth.


Stage 1
Tsunami Bomb: No One's Looking





Stage 2
AFI: The Days of the Phoenix




Stage 3
Ataris: San Dimas High School Football Rules



uh oh, the fans want more

The Jersey Floor Biatches

Your welcome in advance for this. Please watch Jimmy Fallon and other great SNL alum make you laugh and pee a little.

Some advice for all my friends having children

First of all, let me say congrats on creating a miracle. Second, stop it already until I can catch up.

I find it weird that you are coming to me for advice on how to raise children, because I have none,* but since you obviously are by looking at this post. let me give you a little nugget of wisdom I learned from watching the Daily Show tonight. Raise your child the way I would have been raised if I would have been left in Asia, where obviously I may originally be from. It is called Tiger Mothering.



*That I know of**


**Paternity test pending***

***Alicia Keys is stalling

Adele

Ok, I know I have recently done a post about her a few weeks ago. But I have finals to study for, so you know that means I have basically lived on youtube for the past two days. What have I been watching? Adele, performing live. Man, she has pipes. No one can compete with her.

Lately this song has been my fave:
Turning Tables


Someone Like You


Rolling in the Deep



Don't You Remember


Adele's recent breakup led to her writing this CD. Does it make me a bad person to hope that her next relationship ends bitterly so we can get another gem like this?

Also as a side note, I have heard she is coming to SLC this summer. If anyone wants to take me you can have my first born or something else, like a snickers bar.

Happy Easter

So, this was my first real holiday away from home since the mission. I am moving home in a few weeks so it didn't make any sense for me to go home. A friend of mine was going to come down here but couldn't end up making it. So I thought that I was going to go through my first family holiday as a family of 1. Yeah....it was every bit as depressing as that sounds......until one of my buddies at school invited me over for Easter dinner with him and his wife and some of our other friends from school and friends from their ward. It really turned out to be a lot of fun, great food, good conversation, and definitely filled up that gap that being away from home and family for the holiday left. I kind of felt like a grown up. Like I know that I am 26, but somehow being a student still, even though it is grad school, still makes me feel like I did when I was 21. And the fact that I am not married blah blah blah and all that stuff also does not bode well for the making me feel older thing. So, time away from home over Easter, having a gap filler with friends down here, makes me one step closer to being an adult, right?

Anywho, Happy Easter, I hope that it was a good one for everyone!

Perfect Couples

If you don't watch this show, I recommend you get caught up on Hulu. It started off a little rough but mid season it found itself and now it is a perfect part of my Thursday night of television watching while I run at the gym or Friday at the library in between classes when I am "studying". Here is a clip to get you interested:

Impulsive

Today I realized that I may over react on impulses. I realized this when I started filling out an application to join the Peace Corps. It has always been a dream to serve in the Peace Corps. I really wish it wasn't a 2 year program. I really wish I didn't have the desire to have responsibilities like a real job as a practicing attorney and a family, or else I would be boarding a plane to Ghana or Thailand or Moldova or Samoa or Jordan or Costa Rica and be building farms and digging wells and teaching English or health and playing soccer with kiddos and teaching them tennis and baseball and basketball. I would be on a beach or in a jungle or wherever. Ahh......I should go to bed before I restart an application.

Fear

No not this bad Marky Mark movie of the 1990's



but real and actual fear. I fear one thing and one thing only: the unknown.....and sharks. But I want to talk about the former in this post and will talk about how I just know from years of watching Shark Week that a shark attack is probably the way my life will tragically end in another post.

So fear. I am not really good at talking about emotions with actual people. I am tough. I am nice, but I am tough. I try not to let things get me down. I am generally really optimistic. I try to turn anything into a joke, whether or not it is appropriate or too soon to be joked about. But, if Katrina taught us anything, sometimes those levies just bust wide open. Yeah....I know.... too soon...

Anyways, things that happen to me I never get afraid of. I once heard this quote my Marie Curie that I have tried to live by: "Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood." So I have taken that fully to heart. If there is something that I am afraid of I try to tackle it head on. Moving away from home? Check. I may hate it sometimes, but I am grateful for everything that I have learned about myself in moving away and it has helped me understand myself, families, and independence in a way that I would never have been able to do any way else. My former health problems? Ok, I let them get the best of me when I was in high school. But, I beat that. And now I am not afraid of anything that happens to me. I know who I am and that I am tough.

However, what, does scare me, and one thing that I cannot understand: is when bad things happen to the people I love. The fear of the unknown. Of not being able to control the outcome. Of not really knowing any way I can help. What I am talking about is how my Grandpa was diagnosed yesterday with an agressive form of prostate cancer. He is 82, and you know what they say, if you don't die first you'll live long enough to get some type of cancer. I don't actually know if that is a thing that people say. The Big C is something that happens to people all the time. I know I shouldn't be taken back or surprised......but I am. My Grandpa is my hero. Someone that if I lived my life to be half as great as he is, I would be a really successful person. He is 82 and in really great health. Someone that has taken excellent care of himself. I am just trying to wrap my head around the understanding part of this. I know that if I had to pick between my Grandpa's fighting spirit against his aging self and an agressive cancer, I would pick Gramps every time.

So here comes the time for trying to understand. I stayed up until 4 in the morning trying to learn about prostate cancer, how it is formed, warning signs, treatments, probabilities, preventions, potential for it to run in families, etc. Trying to understand so I can not be afraid of it. Reading about how to help loved ones who get the disease, so I can understand how I can best help my hero. Reading message board posts of people who have it so I can understand how they feel so I can understand and develop empathy. My hero has got a battle ahead of him. His own body is literally attacking him from within. It is hard to wrap my head around that. I am not going to lie, I am a little afraid. But I think I get my toughness from my hero, so I know that the Big C doesn't know what exactly it is up against.

So it is basically the weekend

and in all honesty all I want to do is take an easy saturday and watch these movies that I haven't seen:

Rabbit Hole


This is the movie that I want to see the most on this list that I haven't seen yet. It is supposed to be dark and a little depressing but I have heard it is also supposed to be amazing




Love and Other Drugs


Ok, I have heard some reviews that make me wonder if I should actually watch this or not....so I am undecided




Due Date


Again I have heard it is hilarious and that it is the worst movie either Robert Downy Jr. and Zach Galifnakas have ever made.


If you have seen any of these please let me know if any of them are worth my time.


or I could rewatch some of these new movies that I really, really, really like.

The Fighter


The best boxing movie I have ever seen




It's Kind of a Funny Story


One of my new favorites.





127 Hours


This one was intense and crazy in the same way that Castaway was really good....although I like this movie a lot better than Castaway.


But in reality:
This is what I am going to be doing tomorrow FML



Writing a legal brief. Also it is what I will be doing Saturday. Oh, and Sunday. All of course Intermingled with General Conference. I actually really like General Conference a lot. I am going to miss Momma Cummings' giant homemade General Conference Sunday breakfast. French toast, cinnamon french toast, pancakes, fruit, scrambled eggs, ham/spinach quiche, bacon, fresh orange juice, and my grandparents coming over. My mom makes breakfast only 3 times a year so I think she tries to make up for it by going all out on these occasions. (2 Gen Conference Sundays and Fathers day to be specific) Luckily (being optimistic) this legal brief will keep me so occupied that I won't even know the difference between the banana and granola bar I will be eating for breakfast instead of that family tradition meal.

Saturday I scored a free training session with the head trainer at my gym in between conference sessions so that is going to make for a long day. Ironically enough, I scored a free session with one of the trainers tonight too, basically by chatting with her for a bit before I started working out, and her asking me if I wanted to work out with her when she got off of work. So I ran 4 miles until she got off and then she basically killed me. And by me I mean the areas where I am supposed to have biceps and triceps and pecs and abs.

Correction to last post

I was informed that Drew Barrymore isn't even believable in being a person and should be removed from the list. So as her replacement I submit someone I totally forgot to include on the list in the first place.

January Jones



Oh Betty Draper. I apologize for not putting you on this years list.

and she is hilarious:

Alright enough already- Celebrity Crush time

I have eluded to my top ten ladies of 2010 for quite some time now and have put off making the list until now. So here we go. These are my top ten celebrity crushes of 2010.

10. Gwyneth Paltrow


I know....what?!? Gwyneth hasn't been on my list in quite some time, and I am honestly surprised that she is on it. But her guest appearance on Glee and her version of Forget You by Cee Lo, along with finally being in a movie again has brought her back into the spotlight and probably more importantly, on this list.

9. Emma Stone


Oh Emma. I didn't want to love her, because every time I see her I see what my girl LiLo could and should have been. But because LiLo has taken another path.....Emma welcome to the list. Easy A- surprisingly very funny. Zombieland- classic. Superbad- disgustingly hilarious. I will even give her some credit for being the best thing in the Housebunny. What I love about her is she is hot as a red head (very hard to do), with black hair (my fave for her) and with blond hair.

8. Lauren Conrad



L.C. I need you to do something other than write a book that I will never read in order to continue on this list. You have moved up a few spots because over Christmas break my sister and I watched a Hills marathon, and I remembered why I love you and your cry-ey mascara face.


7. Kate Hudson



Kate, you are slipping too. I fell in love with you a long time ago because of 2 movies. The first is one of my all time favorite movies: Almost Famous. The second, one of 5 chick flicks that I think are decent movies: How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. I need you to stop doing romantic comedies. You are better than that. You can do better.

6. Eva Mendes



Eva you are slipping too. You are being kept alive because of Hitch, another chick flick on that list of 5.

tied with (I am doing a couple of ties this year, deal with it)

Drew Barrymore



Drew has finally figured herself out. And that is what makes her finally on the list. She has always been cute. But kinda crazy. Like have to leave off of the top ten because of the crazy. But her acting in the HBO movie Grey Gardens was her best work yet. And lets face she is the best thing to happen to an Adam Sandler movie since Happy Gilmore. Also, her directorial debut for Whip It, really good. So welcome to the list Drew! I want you to stay for a long long time. That means no more weird marriages to Tom Green or flashing David Letterman.

5. Minka Kelly



If you haven't had a conversation with me in the past 6 months, then you might not of heard that I fell in love with a show called Friday Night Lights. She plays Lyla. She is also in Parenthood. She is also going to be a new Charlie's Angel (I think this may be a mistake.) But congrats Minka you are on the list.

tied with

Emmanuellle Chriquii aka Sloan from Entourage



I will refer to her as Sloan. She marries E in entourage who is the character I relate to most in that show, so it is only fitting she is on the list right? So her and Minka are tied because they look really similar and my love for both is about equal.

4. Marion Cotillard



I mean seriously. I have yet to see her do a bad movie. La Vien Rose- really good, Public Enemies- good, Nine- I am not really a musical kind of guy, but she was good in it, and Inception- one of my favorite movies of 2010. That movie alone enough to put her on this list. How does someone new jump all the way to the top 5? She just signed on for the next batman flick.

3. Rachel McAdams



Oh Rachel. She punched me once.................it was awesome. I have nothing but good words to say about her. I mean seriously. She is one girl that 2 of my friends who are completely straight, say they would turn for. That is who she is. Mean Girls, Wedding Crashers, State of Play, and I will go as far as The Notebook (don't judge me, like I said there are 5 good chick flicks.)

2. Alicia Keys (gasp)



The person who has been number 1 on my list since forever. It was hard to do this. Really hard. But I thought we were in a committed relationship. Turns out I am not the father. And for that, I had to do this. It hurts. It hurts really bad.

1. Zooey Deschanel



She can do no wrong. (With the exception of The Happening.) I love her music. She is in one of my all time favorite movies, 500 Days of Summer. Also Elf. She made Yes Man a watchable show. She is in a ton of cool indie movies. So, there you have it. A new number one.